Trees Undress

When the Trees Undress – An Autumn Reflection on Letting Go and Renewal

Every autumn feels like a quiet invitation to begin again — to loosen what clings too tightly and let time strip us back to truth. The season writes its sermon in gold and rust: everything you love will change, and that’s how it’s meant to be. In this reflection, I learn from the trees — how to let go with grace, how to trust the cycle, how to bloom again after the fall.

The Art of Letting Go

Every autumn feels like a lesson I still haven’t quite learned — how to loosen my grip, how to release without resentment, how to stand bare and call it grace. The trees do it without flinching. One gust, one silent surrender, and their gold turns to ground.

I watch them and wonder if they mourn their own brilliance, or if they already understand what I keep resisting — that not everything meant to fall is a tragedy.

We are taught to hold: memories, people, ambitions that have expired. We mistake endurance for love, even when the weight warps our spine. But the forest whispers otherwise — it says, “What you release will feed you later.”

So I try to mimic their faith. To let my own leaves go without apology. To trust that the bare version of me — without all the noise and decoration — can still be beautiful, can still breathe.

Maybe the art of letting go isn’t about detachment at all. Maybe it’s about remembering that endings are just transformations written in quieter ink.

Rituals of Solitude

There are days when quiet feels heavier than sound — when the house hums, the kettle sings, and still the silence stretches like an empty field. But over time, I’ve learned to treat that silence as an ally.

I light a candle, feed the dogs, open the window just enough for the cold to bite. These small gestures are not about loneliness; they are how I remind myself that I exist even when no one is watching.

Solitude isn’t the absence of love. It’s the room love leaves behind so we can breathe. In that space, I return to the pulse beneath the noise — to the rhythm of paws on the floor, the smell of coffee, the slow thaw of morning light on skin.

It’s here that I remember who I am when I’m not performing care for others. Here, I can lay my thoughts out like laundry and decide which ones are still worth wearing.

Perhaps the truest ritual of solitude is this: learning to sit inside your own presence until it feels like home again.

The Essential Self

When the noise of the world thins out, what’s left is startlingly simple — the self without audience, the heartbeat without applause. It’s not the version that smiles for photos or holds polite conversation — it’s the one that lives quietly under the ribs, patient, steady, waiting to be noticed.

Autumn teaches that kind of honesty. The trees are still themselves after the gold is gone; they don’t panic when beauty peels away. They stand there, rough-skinned and true, knowing that nakedness is not shame but clarity.

I used to think reinvention meant adding more — more strength, more grace, more light. But the older I get, the more I understand it’s about subtraction: taking away the noise, the expectation, the reflex to perform.

And when everything else falls, what remains isn’t empty — it’s essential. It’s the quiet spine that has carried me through every storm. The self that doesn’t need an audience to exist. The one that survives all seasons and still hums softly, I am here.

Grief and Cycles

There’s a certain mercy in decay. What we call endings are often just translations — life shifting dialects. The leaves rot, yes, but they also soften the ground for next year’s bloom.

Grief works the same way. It strips us, humbles us, returns us to soil. We think we’re breaking, yet beneath the wreckage, something small and faithful begins to root again.

The forest never fights its losses. It folds them into the rhythm of return. I want to live like that — to let what dies inside me feed what’s meant to live next.

So when I feel the ache of absence, I try not to run. I listen. I remind myself that sorrow isn’t an intruder; it’s a gardener, pruning me back to the possible.

And maybe that’s the secret the trees have always known:

that loss isn’t punishment, but preparation.

That every shedding is a promise whispered under breath —

you will grow again.

April Joy Alfarnes

🌿 Explorer, storyteller, and outdoor enthusiast embracing friluftsliv in Norway’s great outdoors. Lover of hiking, camping, ice bathing, and animal rescue. Fur mom to Hugo & Lyra. ✍️

https://www.apriljoyalfarnes.com
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